"Nothing to see here...."

Not really much going on to report lately. Just been doing what I can to promote my business, that's about it. I put in my notice at my old job a few weeks ago. They are still training my replacement, he'll be ready around the end of this month. I'm scared, to tell you the truth. I don't feel ready, but at the same time, I know that this step is necessary. Feel like it is the direction God is leading me. Can't explain it any other way. I understand that if I wait until i feel ready, until I "know" enough and have enough, then I will never do anything. We as people have a way of talking ourselves out of anything that is even the slightest bit shaky by our standards (like faith). Its amazing how we will hold on so dear to something that is REALLY unsure, though. I bet all those people with secure positions at Enron never saw the day coming that they would be placing a gun in their own mouths because what they believed was so secure, what they held on to, what they thought would always be there for them came crashing down before them. We as Americans never thought that we would be attacked on our own soil. I mean, this is AMERICA! Strange how the things we've come to depend on are slowing crumbling around us. When the smoke clears and the shaking stops, all that will remain is faith and hope. So why do I continue to be afraid of the future? To be honest, financial insecurity is one of my biggest fears, worries, whatever. Not from the standpoint of not being able to have nice stuff... But I don't ever want to be in a position to where I cannot provide for my family. We don't have the nicest things in the world, but I am blessed with a very loving and understanding family. Most of my family understands full well that true happiness does not come from things. They have seen too many of their own friends and family have everything they could imagine, and they have also seen the corruption that can come too easily when everything is handed to you. They have also seen the futile efforts people take to hang on to their "stuff" and the pain of losing that stuff.. I'm glad that my kids can appreciate stuff in a healthy way and not be tied to it. So, why do I worry? When God talks about having faith like a child, my girls help me to understand that.. They have full faith that when they turn on a switch that the lights will come on. They have full faith that when they are hungry, there will be food. They have full faith that I will always come home to them each evening and spend at least a little time playing and doing girl stuff with them. They never worry about where anything is coming from because they have faith that come hell or high water (always loved that phrase), that their father will take care of them and do what is best..
...Man, to be a child again. Help me, Lord, to trust in You like my girls trust in me...

-myk